Villain,

Living alone and far away

I don’t know if I’d be able to do it. For me especially, I think it would be extremely lonely, considering the fact that I live with seven people and a dog, plus I rarely ever reach out to people who aren’t already tangible to me. I’ve just never been the type of person to just randomly hit someone up, or even simply ask them how they’ve been doing after not seeing them for the longest time… I don’t even know why.

I just feel the most comfortable coming home after a long, hard day to be welcomed with a group of people asking me, “how was your day?”. Although, I don’t open up very much to them, just spending time with them — their mere presence is already enough to make me feel safe.

Haha, it wouldn’t be a problem anyway because I’m planning on getting another dog when I’m older, so yeah. 

Hah, everyone has been

telling me that I am “too hard on myself” and that I am a perfectionist, but that really is not the case.

If anything, I have actually been way too easy on myself. I don’t actually have any real goals; all I am doing, is what should and must be done — nothing special. Coincidentally, however, I have also been doing exceptionally well throughout the whole process and it is simply because I am lucky. I’m lucky that I’m happy and that the way that I feel also happens to affect my work ethic and drive.

Basically, I am currently invested in a “go with the flow” type of phase. If you give me a list of things to do, I will do it and I will do it well, without any type of protest… just for the sake of accomplishing something, really.

I guess I just want to feel some sort of progression; I want to move, although I’m not quite sure where it is I will make my way to. Still, at the end of the day, I know that the only thing that I really am doing, is setting myself up for something false. I haven’t actually achieved anything.